If anyone is new to the party, I just moved. Far. Again. I left not one but two jobs I liked to do it, all in the name of family ties. This time, however, we are here to stay. I’m not moving again. Well, okay, maybe when our lease is up, but not far.
Moving to a new city is always an adjustment. It’s simultaneously exciting and disconcerting. I almost always go through some sort of period of self-doubt. Who am I now that I live in New York, Montreal, Honolulu, Washington DC? What am I going to do? What does it all mean? That sort of thing. Finding answers to these questions is a fairly stressful process for me. I usually have a temper tantrum every two weeks for the first six months, and then I’m fine. I know. It doesn’t make me sound very cool, but at least I know what to expect. (Knowing is half the battle, after all.) (I thought about putting the obvious link there, then didn’t. Should I have? I mean, the clip is already in your head, right?) (I just felt like I needed another parenthetical remark. Power of threes or something.)
Yesterday, I was exploring Internetland and wandered across this site. You probably already knew about it, but since I spend most of my time around small children who don’t have Facebook accounts, I had not seen it. I’m not really so much into the Facebook these days, but I couldn’t resist giving this particular meme a whirl. And ohmigosh! It was so worth the fifteen minutes I wasted when I should have been applying for jobs. Try it. You won’t be sorry. Probably. But who can say?
My bot had lots of useless things to say, but after several tries, it finally spit out something wonderful. “I am finally going to be amazing,” it said. It read like a good omen, like a fortune cookie made of my own words. I am finally going to be amazing. I couldn’t resist the optimism of that statement. What if this is it? What if this is my chance? What if I am finally going to be amazing?
Suddenly, I felt like maybe I could be a person that accomplishes great things. Suddenly, that long-shot museum management job I had just applied for didn’t seem like such a long shot. Suddenly, I thought, maybe I could wear patterned tops?
This year, in this place, I am finally going to be amazing. Dammit.
